March 8, 2025 435 days without you Hi Dad (I’m saying this with a smile because it feels so good to “talk” to you), I’m sorry it’s been a month since I’ve last written to you—time has been flying down…
Letters to Dad: Carcinophobia
February 7, 2025 406 days without you Hi Dad, Were you scared of getting cancer before you actually got cancer? Did it ever cross your mind? Did you ever think that you would die of cancer? Before you knew you…
Letters to Dad: Happy Birthday
February 6, 2025 405 days without you Hey Dad. I miss you. I love you. I wish I was talking to you face-to-face; there’s so much I want to tell you, so much I just need to let out. I…
Letters to Dad: You’re On My Team
January 27, 2025 395 days without you Hi Dad, It’s me….again. I have a lot on my mind and no one to process it with, so I figured I could tell you. I mean what’s the worst that could happen?…
Letters to Dad: Family Dynamics & Versions of You
January 16, 2025 384 days without you Hi Dad, Tonight was rough, like couldn’t stop crying rough. And I feel like you might be the only one who would get it. That sucks you know—knowing the only person who would…
Letters to Dad: A New Year
January 10, 2025 378 days without you Happy New Year, Dad. 2025—can you believe it? Do you even recognize that it’s a new year up there? Does time even exist in Heaven? These questions make my brain hurt, so I’m…
Letters to Dad: Merry Christmas and Catching Up
December 27, 2024 363 days without you Hi Dad, Merry (late) Christmas. I’m sorry I didn’t write to you on Christmas day. I selfishly didn’t want to because I wanted to have a good day; not that every time I…
Letters to Dad: Last Day Home
December 12, 2024 349 days without you Dad, I was doing okay, and just like that, I’m broken again. I guess that’s how grief is, how missing a part of you is—you’re okay one second, and splitting in half the…
Letters to Dad: From September 2024
September 20, 2024 266 Days Without You Last night I dreamt about you. You were right there, standing in front of me, but I knew you were about to leave. I didn’t know if you were going to die, but…
Letters to Dad: The First Letter
August 6, 2024 221 Days Without You Hi Dad, My therapist thinks I should start writing to you. She thinks it will help me process. I wish I didn’t have to. I wish I could just sit down across from…
Letters to Dad: From August 2024
August 5, 2024 220 Days Without You Hi Dad, I’m just missing you extra today.
Letters to Dad: From March 2024
March 30, 2024 92 Days Without You As I sit here, in your chair, listening to the same clock tick, the silence is the loudest sound in the room. You should be whistling or getting up to get a cup…
